| TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THIS LIFE |
[Aug. 1st, 2004|02:21 pm] |
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| | ASHLEE SIMPSON--SHADOW | ] |
OMG!!!!ITS PITTSBRUGH HEY DIANA HOW HAVE YA BEEN. OF COURSE THIS IS ME THE ONLY COOL CAT YA KNOW!!!MEOW WELL ITS ALL GOOD OVER HERE...HOPE THE SAME WIT YA . MY NUMBER IS 370-0518 CALL ME WHEN YA WANT...MY EMAIL FOR MSN IS CANO_915@HOTAMIL.COM...IT WAS NICE HEARING FROM YA...AND I REMEMBER YOU BDAY IS COMING IN SEPTEMBER 11.
OK WELL NEW SUB.. I WEN TO THIS PARTY ON FRIDAY WITH MY "PRIMOS" AND I HAD FUN...GOT A BIT TIPSY. THATS ABOUT IT A KISS AND DANCED A LOT..IM GOING TO THE MOVIES TODAY...WITH MY SIS AND SUM FRIENDS. AND ITS ALL KOO, IN THE OTHER DEPARTMENTS...."ALL KOO"
TO A PERSON TAKE UR OWN ADVICE.
WELL HELLO TO MY PEEPS.!!!THATS HOT!! I WOULD SAY...GOING BACK TO SUM OF MY ROOTS..CHANGING TO BECOME A STRONGER BETTER PERSON...TIME APART FROM AMIGOS...SPACE...IT DOES GOOD.HELLO DIANA Q. DONT GIVE UP
LOVE WILL COME .....BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE...GINA...THINK VERY GOOD...DONT CHOSE A SIDE...IM UR FRIEND TOO. BUT I LUV YA
TAH TAH..MUAHAHAHAHA |
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| LIKE OMG U GUYZ!!! |
[Jul. 26th, 2004|04:10 pm] |
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| | I FEEL LIKE SOO "DOWN" | ] |
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| | THE DOORS--LIGHT MY FIRE | ] |
LIKE THIS PAST WEEK & 1/2 HAS BEEN SO TOTALLY OFF THE HOOK!!!ALL MY FIRENDS ARE SO DOWN FOR EVERYTHING...WE LIKE TOTALLY ON FRIDAY WENT TO THE MOVIES..I HAD OHH SO MUCH FUN. HAHA...WELL WE WATCHED "CATWOMEN" MEOW!! IT WAS LIKE I WAS IN THE MOVIES WITH HALLE SHE IS LIKE OHH SO MUCH HOT!!! WELL AFTER THAT WE CHILLED AT HAMBERSTAND..AND WE TOTALLY ATE LIKE "TWT'S" WELL EXCEPT FOR DIANA BCOZ SHE DIDNT EAT HER FIRES THATS SO SAD..WELL AFTER THAT WE WENT TO THE PARK FOR A "PHOTO SHOOT" AND AFTER THAT WE WENT TO DIANAS, AND AFTER THAT WE LIKE WENT TO JESSICAS HOUSE WHERE WE LISTEN TO OUR FAV "BANDS" AND WELL LIKE GINA WANTED TO GO HOME SO WE LIKE DID..CUZ IT WAS PAST OUR "CERFEW";) WELL IT WAS OHH SO FUNN!!! AND LIKE MY EGO "NICOLE RICHIE" WOULD SAY..THATS HOT!!! WELL TAH TAH |
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| I HADNT FELT THIS WAY BEFORE |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|02:12 pm] |
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| | ALEK SYNTEX--LUCHA DE GIGANTES.. | ] |
THIS FEELING IM HAVING RIGHT NOW IS SUCH AN AMAZING THING....IT MAKES ME FEEL SO GREAT..I FINALLY FOUND A PERSON THAT LOVES ME..IT MAKES ME FEEL SO DIFFERENT...HAPPY...I HAD NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE AND IT FEELS SO GOD DAMN GOOD..I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP FOR THE PAST FOUR DAYS...WE TALK UNTIL 4 TO 6 IN THE MORNING..AND WE STILL DONT WANT TO HANG UP...I THANK FABIOLA MY GOOD FRIEND FOR HELPING ME WITH ALL THIS BULLSHIT..SHE HAS FELT THIS WAY BEFORE..AND HAS KNOWLEDGE OF WATS GOING ON...SUSPIRO Y SUSPIRO ME HASE SENTIR TAN BELLO, COMO NO PUEDO DESCRIBIR..IM TRYING SO HARD...AND ITS WORKING...NO LO PUEDO NI PENSAR KE YA SE COMO SE SIENTE UN AVENTURA PELIGROSA...ITS SO EXCITING. WOO HOO...PROFAVOR NO PREGUNTEN NADA DE ESTO, POR QUE VOY A CAMBIAR EL TEMA..........GRACIAS...AVER SI ALRATO LES DIGO PERO CUNADO YO SE KE ES NECESARIO.....PERO ANTES NO..Y NO SE SIENTAN..POR KE TODOS TENEMOS SECRETOS....
GRACIAS POR ACERME SENTIR COMO NIñO OTRA VES...AUNKE NO LO PUEDAS VER |
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| CHANGES---DONT TAKE IT PERSONAL!! |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
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| | KELLY&OZZY OSBOURNE--CHANGES | ] |
I FEEL SO SHITY LIKE A PIECE OF SOMETHING IS MISSING FROM ME...I FEEL ALONG WHEN I HAVE FRIENDS..FAMILY..AND PPL BY MY SIDE..I NEED TO TALK TO A PERSON ABOUT THIS..I SOMETIMES THINK I HAVE SOME TYPE OF DISORDER OR SOMETHING CUZ I HAVE MOOD SWINGS ALL THE TIME..I COULD BE HAPPY THEN SAD..THEN I THINK I DONT LIKE TO REMEMBER THINGS, IT SO CONFUSING...I NEED TO KNOW ME...THE PERSON THAT WANTS TO COME OUT, BUT IT FEELS AS IF IM FIGHTING IT...SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT MY FRIENDS ARE NOT THERE FOR ME CUZ THEY CANT UNDERSTAND ME...WHEN THEY BOTH NEED HELP THEM SELFS TOO. SOMETIMES I THINK MEMEORIES ARE MEANT TO STAY BEHIND BARS, ERASED COMPLITLY...PICTURES ARE THE SAME THING..THEY GET YOUR MOOD UP AND DOWN.. I FEEL HAPPY I FEEL SO SAD, I'VE LOST THE BESTFRIEND, I EVER HAD.. I'M GOING THROUGH CHANGES...IMAGINE ALL THE THINGS THAT I HAVE LIVED THROUGH SO MANY THINGS, SO MANY THAT PEOPLE WOULD NOT BELIEVE ME.. SO MANY THINGS THAT CANT BE ANSWER OR BROUGHT BACK..WELL HELLO TO THE NEW FRIEND I MADE DAVID KE ONDA.. HELLO KK..AND WELL UNTIL NEXT TIME... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|10:36 pm] |
i remember alot of things with this song. good, bad shit. i would even say i missed those days so much. i was barely getting to know these people, that i opened up to. so many secrets... diana and her shit with edgar( lets call him lanpara) it was total kool.. i fell in love for the first and last time. i gained alot of friends but i also lost many.. those talks we had in jesses bedroom.. where the best i ever had . i will never forget those times. when a group of individuals let me in to there lifes and homes.. from that day on i gain respect and i gained trust. and most of all i gained a true friend...diana... and i made sum like doris, matilda, jessie, and edgar who kinda changed me in a way i had never felt before. all those talks we had where true. they never had anything mean about me. they had just started to know me.. and i have become such a different person.. a totaly different aspect of the world..i could even cry when i remember this...for me these times where one in a million.. for others they are gone. i have know who i am. how i feel. and most of all i know wat i do...i really miss those days...i will always member them......
today i had a lil chat with 2 of my "amigos".... edgar and ramon....ramon is actually acting koo wit me.. and edgar the same... i feel as if he doesn't wanna tell me any of his shit, so that i wont get in his bitness...well he tells me sum stuff that makes me get in.. like he told me that his "gf" mite be "pregnant" is that not enough to get in his bitness when he knows that i act like a "bro" when his doing stuff that his gonna regret later...to one person in particular it hurts the most.. this person has an enormous love for him...and i dont know where it comes from...this person gets way to much hurt...and it needs to stop...
one of these days people are going to realize that beaing "fat" doesnt matter in a relationship. its not the looks...its what comes from inside..
i have told myself that so many times..and i actually believe in it. lol the day will come when i meet the person that i am destend to be with..but i at least want to have some people along the way..ppl like "eka" put alot of ppl like me..and my friends down.. they treat us as if we where going to eat the world..only for beaing overweight.. they try to use us as the fat "friends" and that hurts...even if we say it doesn't...trust me i'm fat.
i have this one dream that all they have done to use will.. trust me will get paid.. with interest..god damn!! it will.. i will not be treated as the fat friend that cant do any better than me..
i am saying this i believe wait wait no i am a better person than "eka" i the whole package wait till my ass gets toned...i will make disaster happend...i love to get even!!!muahahaha
this needs to stop..diana.. no se como pero it needs to stop... in the whole shit..stop caring... |
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| JUST WRITING... |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|04:14 pm] |
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| | NEW FOUND GLORY--HEAD ON COLLISION | ] |
IN MY DREAMS I ALWAYS SEE U SOUR ABOVE THE SKY...IN MY HEART THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A PLACE FOR U..FOR ALL MY LIFE...I KEEP A PART OF U WITH ME AND EVERYWHERE I AM..THERE YOU'LL BE.
HELLO TO ALL THATS A FAV QUOTE FROM A SONG THAT I LOVE...WELL I WAS TALKING TO "DUCKY" THIS ONE CHICK I MET IN THE NET AND WE WHERE LIKE A COUPLE FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS.. WELL UMM NOT MUCH TO SAY!!! BUT I WENT IN TO THIS WEB SITE THAT SAVV FOUND CALLED "FAT GIRLS GONE WILD" AND IT WAS LIKE TOTALLY "EROTIC" THE FAT AND LARD OH MY GODD!!!IT WAS WAY "PUNK ROCK" WELL I FEEL LIKE AN "EMO" PHASE IS COMING UP!!!...........IM LIKE SO SICK OF ALL CREATURES.........
OK ITS OVER!!!
WELL TO SEE MORE INFO ON "FAT GIRLS GONE WILD" ASK "RACIDS_RUBI" SHE HAS THE USERSNAME TO IT.. TAH TAH
"WILD TUBBIES ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" |
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| THE WAY I AM-&-NO MONEY FOR THE TRIP |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|09:26 pm] |
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| | GREEDY FOR $MONEY$ | ] |
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| | NO MUSIC WATCHING "NO MANCHES" | ] |
WELL ONCE AGAIN I WAS TALKING TO THE WALLS..THERE THE ONLY ONCES THAT LISTEN TO ME..WELL I WAS SEEING THAT MY MOM BROUGHT ME UP TO BE A HELL OF A GOOD PERSON..AND A GOOD BITCH!!! WELL I WAS LIKE WHEN PPL LOOK GOOD..I LOOK BETTER.HAHAHA.ITS CUZ MY MOM ALWAYS TOLD ME I CAN BE BETTER THAN MANY...AND I KNOW I COULD BE..OK THIS MIGHT SOUND THAT I THINK THAT I AM ALL THAT BUT "NO"!! I'M A KOOL PERSON ASK MY FRIENDS. AND I COULD EVEN SOUND ASSHOLISH BUT "NO"!! I WAS ALWAYS TOLD TO DO MY BEST.. AND TO NEVER LET NO "BITCHES" PUT ME DOWN...I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I AM WRITING THIS..HAHAHA UMM WELL I HAVE ALWAYS HAD PPL THAT PUT ME DOWN SINCE WE WHERE IN ELEMENTRY UNTIL NOW...BUT NO..I HAVE A WAY TO GET EVEN;) MUAHAHAHA..
OK WE HAVE LESS THAN 3 WEEKS FOR THE WARPED TRIP AND MY ASS HAS ONLY $11.60.HAHAHA AND I NEED A HELL OF MORE MONEY.....AND WHERE MAKING A "YARD SALE" ON SATURDAY 26 SO COME TO MY HOUSE TO SHOP ON THE LATEST TRENDS FROM EKCO, TOMMY, DICKES, AND SUM SHIT FROM SAVV.LOL WELL I NEED MONEY WELL DO "ANYTHING" FOR MONEY...YES I SAID ANYTHING!!OK TAH TAH
P.S.
I WANNA PARTY |
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| MUNCHO TIEMPO NO SEE |
[Jun. 14th, 2004|02:54 pm] |
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| | ASHANTI W/ BABY AND SOUTHSIDE | ] |
WELL HELLO TO ALL MY READERS I KNOW LONG TIME NO SEE..WELL BY REQUEST I AM BACK...LOL...OK WELL I WAS LIKE TALKING TO THE WALLS LIKE I USED TO YES THEY TALK BACK TO ME (U GUYZ SHOULD TRY IT)..THEY TOLD ME THAT I HAVE BECOME A BIGGER BITCH...NOT BY SIZE!!OK DIANA OR SAVV...THAT I HAVE TO LEARN WAT TO SAY..BEFORE SAYING SHIT..MUAHAHAHA
"KK KE ONDA CONTIGO"...HELLO TO THE "HEFFAS" INCLUDING EVERYONE OK EXCEPT SAVANNAH..LOL OK HER TOO, OH WELL I HAVE LIKE THIS ON "AMIGO" ON YAHOO. THAT MADE ME CRY LAST NOCHE. HIS NAME IS "JASON LEE" AND I KINDA THINK HE LOOK LIKE "EKA" AND A CHINITO. HE WAS LIKE TOTALLY CRYING ON CAM.. HE WANTED TO END HIS LIFE.. I EVEN SAW THAT HE HAD A KNIFE IN HIS RIGHT HAND AND I AM POSITIVE HE USED IT...I CRY TO SEE THE WAY HE CRIED IT WAS AS IF I HAD HIM NEXT TO ME. I WAS SCARED AND SAD... HIS TIRED OF HIS LIFE.. HIS TIRED OF BEAING "ALONE"..I WAS TALKING TO HIM AND I TOLD HIM I KNEW HOW HE FELT..JASON TAKE CARE DUDE!!...I SAW THE MOVIE "GARFIELD" I WAS "FUNNY" I LAUGHED BY MY SELF.HAHAHA I SAT ALONE. A ROW TO MY SELF HAHAHA LOL..I AINT NO LOZER CUZ IF I WERE I WOULD NOT SIT ALONE I WOULD HAVE SAT NEXT TO SUM FAMILY.LOL BUT LIKE IM TO KOOL SO I SAT ALONE. AND I THINK THIS SO CALLED LOVE I FELT FOR SOME PERSON IS LEAVING THE BUILDING....GONE LEFT? WELL SEE? WELL CANT WAIT TILL THE SHOPPING GOES ON... I THINK I HAVE BECOME A GREAT "HATICH" WHICH MEANS HATER BITCH.. MY WORD SO KEEP IT THAT WAY..."I AM THE #1 HATICH" |
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| THE THING I NEED-AND NO ITS NOT A LIFE |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|09:32 am] |
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| | * VERY THINKY* | ] |
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| | MIEDO Y ZOMBIE | ] |
MOST OF MY FRIENDS HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS SITUATION EXCEPT SOME...I NEED THIS FOUR LETTER WORD CALLED "LOVE"..ITS A THING I WANT TO ENJOY ITS MISTAKES, ITS HURTS, BY MY OWN HAND. TO SUFFER THE WRONGS OF LOVE..MY FRIEND SAVANNAH ONCE TOLD ME THAT I DONT WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS PHASE IN LIFE. BECAUSE IM GONNA GET HURT, I KNOW THAT SHE DOESNT WANT ME TO GO THROUGH THIS, BECAUSE SHE CARES FOR ME, AND SHE HAS EXPERIENCE THIS..SOME PEOPLE NEED THE FEELING OF LOVE. I INCLUDE MYSELF AND DIANA IN IT..I HAVE FOUND THIS ONE GIRL THAT I CARE FOR, AS MUCH AS TO HAVE "S.E.X" WITH..SHE HAS SAID SHE CARES FOR ME THE SAME WAY I CARE BUT I THINK I CARE MORE..SHE THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT GOES OUT ONE NIGHT AND COMES BACK WITH FIVE DIFFERENT NUMBERS IN THE SAME HAND.. SHE HAS GONE OUT WITH SUM OF MY FRIENDS, AND AQUENTANCES..ONE OF MY FRIENDS DOES NOT APPROVE OF THIS GIRL FOR ME AND I TAKE THAT IN CONCIDIRATION. BECAUSE SHE CARES FOR ME..BUT ITS NOT IF MY FRIENDS APPROVE OR NOT..I WOULD BE WITH THIS GIRL BUT THERES A LOT OF THINGS GOING ON IN BETWEEN.."PEOPLE"
THIS THING CALLED LOVE IS A FEELING THAT COULD HELP AND DISTROY YOU. IT COULD MAKE YOU HAPPY, SAD, ANNOYED, HORNY, MANY MORE FEELING THIS ONE THING CAN GIVE YOU. I WANT TO FEEL HAPPY, LOVED BY SOMEONE THAT CARES FOR ME THE WAY I CARE FOR THEM, THE WAY IT SHOULD BE, NOT ON LOOKS, SIZE, OR ANYTHING OF THAT SORT..NOW IN DAYS "GIRL" ARE WAY TOO PICKY, SOME NEED CARS, SOME NEED TO BE WHITE, AND SOME NEED TO BE SKINNY..THIS THING ABOUT THE APPERIANCE EVERYONE HAS IT. I HAVE IT TOO. I WANT AND NEED A PERSON I COULD TALK TO, ARGUE WITH BUT GET HAPPY RIGHT AWAY WITH JUST ONE KISS, OR SMILE. A PERSON THAT I COULD HAVE A WHOLE CONVERSATION JUST BY STAYING QUIET. A PERSON THAT LIKE ME FOR WHO I AM INSIDE..BECAUSE ON THE OUTSIDE I MAY BE FAT, UGLY AND SHIT..BUT IN THE INSIDE I AM HOTTER OR CUTTER THAN ANYONE OUT THERE..I HAVE A THING CALLED A HEART..BRAIN..AND PERSONALITY..
I HOPED THAT SOME PEOPLE WOULD LOOK AT ME AS A PERSON, NOT AS THE FAT FRIEND..OF THE CUTE PERSON..I HOPE THAT EVERYTHING CHANGES...NOT CHANGE COMPLETLY AS SOME OF OUR FRIENDS DO. WE WONT SAY NAMES "JAZMIN". WELL SHE A WHOLE DIFFERENT CASE..GOING BACK TO MY SUBJECT...I WANT TO FIND THIS MAGICAL GIRL, WITH A BEAUTIFUL SMILE AND SENCE OF HUMOR, WITH A BUTTY.. LOL..A GIRL THAT DOESNT CARE HOW SHE LOOKS WHEN SHE GOES OUT.JUST AS LONG AS I CARE FOR HER. THAT DOESNT CARE IF HER HAIR IS OUT OF PLACE, OR HER EYELINER IS SMIEARED..OR WHAT.. A GIRL JUST FOR ME.. |
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| big boi 03 |
[Jun. 2nd, 2004|03:08 pm] |
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this is a friend of kilahs u met me like a month ago . she took us to graces house. i was the one wearing the yellow shirt. which i think ur not gonna rememeber.cuz yz were kinda buzzing!!that day by the way im cano |
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